Obama wins!

Senate seats still up in the air and gay marrage in CA, but Obama wins pretty overwhelmingly. This means a lot to my family and how our daughter will view the world.

I think that before Obama came onto the scene black people had an unduly pessimistic view of things because there were such conundrums as his grandmother who raised him, but was also afraid of black men. Now that conundrum has been made president and shown that most people just aren't secretly racist. They may have some troubles, but they are more skin deep and in my opinion simply due to leftovers from how the brain works. The irrational parts of the brain don't as easily change, but they can be overridden.

If the gay marriage amendment passes that will be sad for our family as it will be reflected in American culture. Fortunately our marriage will still exist, but it will be a symbolic setback and symbols are important. Especially if I ever move to California.

China is due for a fall

One of these days (probably pretty soon in my opinion) China is going to hit a wall and stop growing and stop being watched. Back in the 50s Russia was considered a wunderkind of a growing economy. One day though it just stopped and never really recovered.

China is in that position today. It does not have the culture and it does not have the government to progress beyond a factory economy and other countries are going to be undercutting it on that pretty soon. It will have a ravaged environment and nothing to show except the failures of an unsustainable system.

Either that or powerful capitalists will get in charge and usher in modernizations and it goes somewhere. My opinion is that that doesn't happen though.

Nintendo Wii

I just got a nintendo Wii and DDR. Its hard getting into but very fun to play and definitely worth it.

Family

One thing I found is that it is important to be around supportive family members when you start a relationship.

For a while I moved away from family earlier in the relationship, but a lot of unnecessary stress happened and it only really got resolved once I moved back and was back around my family.

Stress

Currently I have found my emotions to be somewhat too strong at work. I think it is because of my naturally ADD nature and paying attention while fully awake gives me trouble. The stress unfortunately takes most of the day and weekend to decompress from. Fortunately most of the stress from being transgendered and hiding it is gone, but I still have too much and am trying various techniques to combat it.

One thing that helped was taking Ashwagandi . It forced the stress down and allowed me to think without it. Currently though I am stopping as I think it helped me enough to stop and I think the amount I am taking is too large to continue for a long time without side effects.

I need to relearn how to be half asleep when I do things as that is how I successfully managed school. I stopped when I had a long commute, but now that it is short again I need to relearn it.

My marrage went wonderfully

I had a great friend who setup the whole thing. She spent a bit more than I wanted, but it turned out great and wondering distant relatives (our aunts and uncles) understood that we are happy and we have a wonderful supportive community.

Before that I had my nails done for the first time and I have to say I really like having my nails done. They don't wear too well on me, but they are fun. I never really understood the whole sex in the city reinventing your look thing, but I have to say I understand it now and I intend on putting more effort into my looks.

First post!

Welcome to this blog.

About me. I am a transgedered lesbian mom who was recently married and is going to have a baby with my partner. Currently I intend to be anonymous on this blog as I am at work.

Here are the identifying facts about myself that I intend on revealing.

I live in a conservative state in a conservative area.

I am a software engineer.

I am white and married to a black woman.